As we approach the end of two thousand and fifteen, I wanted to take a minute to say thank you. This past year was definitely one of the most difficult years of my life. It tested my strength and forced me to evaluate who I am as a person, what I value, and the people in my life.
You see, I became very ill and for a short period of time, I wasn’t mobile. I needed help, and for the first time in my life, I got to see the members of my army. People I thought would be there, weren’t. And people I didn’t expect to be around, were. It was definitely an eye opening experience, and there aren’t enough words in the English vocabulary to express my gratitude for it.
Getting sick, was my biggest blessing. Although I may lose everything that I’ve worked for financially, thanks to the wonderfully large medical bill, I couldn’t be happier. This experience left me feeling wealthier than I could have ever imagined. Before getting sick I was becoming very superficial. I was fixated on decorating my home a certain way, because I thought that would make me happy. Or buying more clothes for my already overflowing closet because I thought ‘you can never have enough clothes’. However, while being sick, all I remember thinking was ‘if I pass away, my husband is going to throw out all of my junk, and that is going to be a very painful experience’. I reflected on the person I was becoming and realized that I was making insignificant things a priority in my life. After all, it’s memories and love that you take into your next life, not objects.
I am grateful for the wakeup call. Aside from the mental ‘ah-ha’ moment, I am also starting to take my health seriously. The Prednisone steroid I was taking made me gain 20 pounds, and I’ve become insecure about my weight gain. But thanks to the weight gain, I am taking my health seriously. I watch what I eat and make sure to exercise. I even have a personal trainer! Me, the girl who had sworn off any physical movement and considered it equal to the devil, I crave going to the gym.
Thanks to my illness, I am learning how to live and enjoy life! I can’t wait to see what 2016 has in store for me….